Its about that thing…
After the grind of project after project, week in and out working behind the camera it becomes stale, something you do because you are a “photographer” and therefor obliged to make images. It is the same images over and over, its new images but they fill in as “work” and look the same.
Don’t get me wrong, its not that I am tired of making images, it’s not that I think the process of scribing light to media is boring or dull. No - I am simply worn down by weeks of work, particularly filled with three different types of fine art fields. Then there is the fast paced world of sports photography/videography in which new products must be released in timeframes that measure in days; and worse it is the same imagery. There is a challenge there to re-invent, to find something new - but that’s not what this is about.
It is about after a long week of illness, pain and non-art related activity that you find yourself in the dark, back to making images by hand and it is in trying something new, in this case a Van Dyke Brown print on heavy duty multi-media paper, that suddenly your soul sings as you search those deep browns, as you see you measured the step wedge correctly and an image you’re rather familiar with suddenly has a whole new life.
It is that moment of creation, that moment of profound joy that your hands and skills built something new, a unique one of a kind “object” after hours and days and weeks of hard work. It isn’t a feeling really, or an experience, but rather perhaps a moment - a moment only the truest of photographers know. Regardless that it comes out of the fixer into the light or off the tray on the printer or out of the processor; when the image takes it’s first breaths, when the work is truly alive before your very eyes. It is what keeps us making images.